Chapter 196: Fiona (1)
“Sigren.” I hugged his neck. “We made up, right?” Read the translation on itsladygrey.com.
“That’s right.”
Well, that was a very good answer. I smiled lightly and kissed his lips.
“….”
He stayed still for a moment, and when I gently bit his lip, he stopped breathing and hurriedly took a step back.
I looked at Sigren. “Wait, am I dumped now?”
“Fiona, you’re hurt.”
“Well, I’m almost completely healed.”
Sigren narrowed his eyes. “It would only be bad for you if we did that in your condition.”
“It was just a reconciliation kiss.”
“I mean, if you do something like that, the situation is going to get complicated.”
I made a sulky expression.
I can’t believe I had to hear that after I touched him.
“That’s too much.”
“Please applaud my patience in thinking of you. In that sense, Fiona, it would be best for you to leave now.”
“Are you driving me out now?”
I took a large pillow from his bed and sat down in the chair, hugging it. It was an expression of dissatisfaction. Read the translation on itsladygrey.com.
Sigren groaned briefly.
“If only that Carl guy hadn’t stabbed you…”
“If he hadn’t stabbed me, what then?”
“Okay, I’ll stop talking.”
He crossed his arms as if protesting my actions. It seemed to be an unspoken declaration that he wouldn’t touch my fingertips.
Wasn’t that defensive attitude a bit much?
“Sigren, I’m not done talking to you yet.”
“Okay, what is it?”
“It’s a really important matter, so it’s hard to discuss it in a ‘get it done quickly and let it out’ way.”
“….”
“First of all, what do you want to do with Carl? He’s in Heilon prison right now.”
Sigren looked worried for a moment. “Carl… I think it would be best for you to judge.”
“He’s your cousin. What would you do if I gave him a harsh punishment?”
“That’s because I know it won’t happen.”
“….”
“I think you’ll come up with a wiser solution than I would.”
He really had a lot of faith in me, didn’t he? Now I really needed to think carefully about Carl.
“Okay, now let’s talk about Fiona.”
“Are you talking about yourself?”
I shook my head. “No, I mean the Darkness. Sigren, do you have any thoughts about her?”
I couldn’t come up with an answer on my own. Read the translation on itsladygrey.com.
Sigren looked at me silently with his arms crossed. “I think I know roughly what the Darkness wants.”
I lifted my head from hugging his pillow.
“What?”
He hesitated. “Love.”
“Love?”
It was a truly unexpected word.
“Not revenge or hatred?”
“That’s what I think.”
“Then why did she attack me? So far, all she’s done is try to torment me.”
“Why does losing your memory become a way to torment you?”
I organized my thoughts carefully. “It’s only for a moment, but because I forgot what I cherished… it felt like I had lost something precious right in front of me.”
Sigren smiled delicately. It was a smile that suggested he knew something but was hiding it.
“Well, Fiona, what was the personality of the girl you knew originally?”
Considering what would happen in the future, Sigren should know Fiona well.
I recalled the details related to her, specifically the way Eunice described Fiona’s character. Read the translation on itsladygrey.com.
“She has a calm and composed personality. She doesn’t even show her emotions outwardly.”
Sigren laughed briefly. “It’s the exact opposite of you.”
“That’s right. She’s the opposite of me. But despite her icy cold appearance, inside she’s like an active volcano.”
“She seems calm, but she actually has a lot of emotions hidden inside.”
“Yeah, I guess so. Maybe the reason she stays calm is that she doesn’t want to get hurt. Ah, well, if I could sum it up, she’s strong on the outside but soft on the inside?” I nodded, muttering whatever I remembered about Fiona. “You’re right, Sigren. Like you said, she may be lacking in affection.”
“Do you think she has the same personality when she becomes the Darkness?”
“I think she’s a little different. She seems more childlike and emotional. It’s as if the mask she has been wearing to avoid getting hurt has come off because her feelings have worn thin.”
“Right.”
“Ah, but if the Darkness purely wanted ‘love,’ it doesn’t explain why she attracted the Crown Prince. Enoch is clearly hostile to me and you, and he has tried to harm us.”
Sigren lost himself in thought. “We’ll have to think more about it.”
“I guess so….”
I pondered Sigren’s hypothesis. He said her purpose was to be loved.
“What should I do now? Is there a way to change Fiona’s mind?”
“Maybe you know the answer better than I do.”
Sigren was right. I probably knew a lot about Fiona. Read the translation on itsladygrey.com.
I searched my memories of her. I had been having terrible dreams about Fiona for as long as I could remember. Among them, I recalled the back of the woman who had abandoned her—my biological mother, who whispered to Fiona to disappear.
“The first person to abandon Fiona is my mother.”
Of course, I could say I was abandoned too.
“Well, wouldn’t Fiona’s heart be relieved if her real mother truly accepted her again?”
Family relationships usually aren’t broken that easily.
Sigren was lost in thought while listening to my words. Then he slowly nodded. “It might be worth a try.”
I blurted out while looking at his face, “Sigren, I feel like you’ve been hiding something from me for a while now.”
“Well…”
“Aren’t there other thoughts about Fiona?”
“No…”
I narrowed my eyes, unable to shake off my doubts. But I gave up prying when I realized he had no intention of telling me. I could ask him later. Read the translation on itsladygrey.com.
Then I sighed, recalling who had given me the information about my biological mother.
“Carl… really…”
I didn’t know what to do with him. I didn’t want to punish him, but I couldn’t let him go as if nothing had happened.
But we still had to meet.
“I have to go, Sigren.”
I stood up and kissed his cheek.
Sigren muttered somewhat regretfully, “I can’t believe you’re thinking about another man in my room…”
“You told me to leave earlier.”
He looked troubled for a moment, then grabbed my arm and pulled me slightly.
Then he whispered in my ear, “Just wait until your wounds heal, Fiona.”
I blushed.
“Wait, so the reason you were complaining about patience and all that earlier is because you were thinking that?!?”
I had only thought about the kiss, but it seemed Sigren had more on his mind.
“You’re probably right, Fiona.”
I knew I couldn’t just trust him to be obedient to me. I calmly slapped his shoulder.
“…”
Sigren touched his shoulder for a moment and laughed briefly. Read the translation on itsladygrey.com.
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