Chapter 161 Decision
I covered his mouth with my hand. “Okay, you don’t have to tell me everything.”
If Sigren wanted to explain the story about Carli, he would have to share his entire childhood, including how his aunt and mother died. I had no intention of bringing that up. “I already understand why you hid Carli’s identity, so that’s enough.”
He probably didn’t want to reveal his ‘killing intent’ toward someone either. No matter how well you try to wrap it up, that couldn’t be a beautiful feeling. Read the translation on itsladygrey.com.
“But there’s one thing: it hurts.” I bit my lip. “So next time something like this happens, tell me.”
Sigren replied in a serious tone, “By all means, I will.”
Tears welled up in my eyes. “I thought you cheated on me.”
Carli was, of course, a man, but he was known as a woman before that.
Sigren looked as if he had heard something completely unexpected. “Me? Cheat on you?”
Why did he look at me with such rare bewilderment? I poked his cheek. “Isn’t it natural in those circumstances?”
“That’s impossible.”
Oh my, is that so?
In this moment, Sigren clearly showed that he was a man in his early twenties who didn’t know what to do with his first love. Read the translation on itsladygrey.com.
I gritted my teeth. “Most men in this world would whisper such things to their lovers when they’re in love, Your Highness.”
Of course, sometimes it was a sweet lie.
“….” Sigren didn’t say anything, as if he were taken aback.
I was surprised to see his genuine shock. “If we switched places, wouldn’t you feel the same?”
“Oh, that’s right.”
“Right? You might be suspicious that I’m cheating on you.”
“No, I couldn’t doubt you.”
What? Really? This answer was even more surprising.
He continued, “But it’s unpleasant just to imagine another man spending time with you.”
That made sense, but it was a little off point. I suddenly became curious when I heard he couldn’t doubt me. “Sigren… then how much do you trust me?”
To be precise, I wanted to ask, ‘Aren’t the inexplicable traces you see sometimes suspicious?’ but…
“How much, you ask…” He carefully touched his forehead. “It’s fine if you kill me.”
My eyes widened. Read the translation on itsladygrey.com.
“If that happened, I would still believe in you.”
His answer was truly shocking to me—completely unexpected.
“Well, at that level, you should be suspicious! At least before you died, you must think that I betrayed you!”
However, Sigren looked unhappy. “I don’t know why you think I don’t trust you.”
For sure, those words made me weak. “Okay, I was just asking.”
It was fine if he died? Was Sigren more blinded by love than I had thought? I suddenly remembered that Abel had compared Sigren to a dog:
[“Just pet him and make him wag his tail like a well-trained dog; otherwise, he’ll bite you.”]
I had brushed it off when Abel said that, but somehow, after my conversation with Sigren, I could see the resemblance. The more I thought about it, the more credible Abel’s words seemed.
Oh, well, I didn’t think he actually bit. Wait, maybe he could bite sometimes?
Anyway, I tried to shake these thoughts from my head, but it was difficult to ignore them. Ah, I was really too soft on Sigren. Read the translation on itsladygrey.com.
I folded my arms and asked plaintively, “Do you have any last words to tell me?”
“There won’t be anything like this in the future.”
“Mmmm…”
That was a bit weak.
“I won’t hurt you ever again. And…”
“And?”
He took my hands and kissed the back of them, then spoke in a very obedient manner, “I’ll do whatever you want.”
Um, was it the right time to ask him to pick the stars from the sky?
However, instead of saying that, I kissed him on the forehead so he wouldn’t backbite me.
Sigren stiffened, perhaps because of the unexpected kinship. Read the translation on itsladygrey.com.
“I forgive you. Carli was a man dressed as a woman, so I let you go.” I narrowed my eyes. “So stop looking at me like that.”
Gosh, I kept thinking about Abel’s words. Though I could say that Sigren felt more like a hunting dog or a hound than a pet dog in many ways… But I should forget this comparison. He wasn’t a dog in the first place!
So, I quickly pushed Abel’s words to the back of my mind.
“Sigren, the gossip about you and me in noble society is very interesting right now…”
His face was filled with sincere regret. “Sorry. I have to be a trash to end this.”
“Oh, why?” That was not what I meant when I said that.
He hesitated. “It seems that if we drift apart for a while, the empress would use fewer tricks on you.”
“But you don’t have to.”
“Let me do this much.”
It was difficult to oppose him because he was so stubborn. Eventually, I asked for something else. “Oh, then what are you going to do about Carli?”
“I got the information I needed. Now, I just have to hide his identity and keep him safe.”
“Then is he coming back as a man?”
“That way, the empress won’t notice him.”
Then he would be in a safe place for a while. “Shall we keep him in the Heilon family?”
Sigren immediately replied, “Why?”
“Well, because he would be safe under the protection of the Heilon family.” I smiled brightly. “I’m also curious about him.”
“…why?”
“Why do you ask? He’s your cousin! Of course I’m curious. Also, if you let him be a man and protect him with the Heilon family, even the empress would have a hard time finding him.” That would be better. Even if he came back as a man, he would still face difficulties avoiding the empress’ watchful eyes. Read the translation on itsladygrey.com.
“Ah, of course, I would respect Carli’s wishes. Don’t worry.”
Suddenly, Sigren narrowed his eyes and stared at me. “Fiona, are you still angry?”
“Huh? I’m really okay now.”
In fact, after Sigren said, “You can kill me,” I lost my desire to be angry.
I looked at him in wonder; I didn’t think there was a problem with my proposal.
“What’s wrong? I’m confident that I can hide Carli well.”
Sigren shook his head. “It’s nothing, Fiona.”
He carefully kissed the ends of my hair and whispered softly, “Very well. As you wish. Read the translation on itsladygrey.com.
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